Why do our bodies hate us so much? The more stressed we are the worse our bodies get. I just lost my ex’s mom last night. While he is my ex, it’s been years and I’m still close to him and his family. His family is like a second family to me. I promised mom a spa day.

She promised she’d come to my graduation in two months. It’ll never happen. I’m just crying, aching and sore, I don't know how I passed my finals with a 96 today, nothing I can do will bring her back. My legs don’t wanna work anymore today so I think it’s time for me to crawl into bed and sleep 12 hours. I want her back so bad. Life has been so hectic lately so I haven’t talked to them much until I got the phone call this morning. I wasn’t ready. No one was. She had fibromyalgia and also struggles with other health issues that we both have. She was the only one that I knew over the years that understood me so well (at least until I found my zebras!). I just want my mama back.

17 Answers

unarmedtopple76
Answered 7 months ago    reply

Hugs xo


ahutto
Answered 7 months ago    reply

I'm so sorry


Guillermina_Arneson
Answered 7 months ago    reply

Big hugs


Wenner.M
Answered 7 months ago    reply

When I wake up in 12 hours I’m just going to hope this isn’t real but the cassidy I’ve cried the worse the pain in my body radiates and I can feel that pain so bad. I don't know how long it’ll take for me to accept this but I’m living with so much guilt right now, I felt like I could have stopped this if I took her out like I told her I would. she’s gone just like that,.

ahutto
Answered 7 months ago    reply

It's not your fault sweetheart, sometimes people just die and there's nothing we can do about it except try to find a way to live without them. It's ok to be sad, and it hurts. We are here for you

Wenner.M
Answered 7 months ago    reply

She overdosed and we’re still unsure whether it was suicide or if she didn’t mean to overdose. I felt like I could have saved her. Just being that one reason for one pill less. she had a lot of health issues too had lots of meds but they drink on weekends so it’s just. I don't know. I felt like I could have reached out. My heart has never sank this low.


pushy_sherrill
Answered 7 months ago    reply

I know how you feel. I lost my best friends mum in March. All I wanted was for her to be at my wedding in May. It never happened. Hugs. X

pushy_sherrill
Answered 7 months ago    reply

My friend passed six years ago and we were like sisters. Her mum was like a mother to me. X


Guillermina_Arneson
Answered 7 months ago    reply

You did nothing to cause this. You could not prevent it. My mom died a yr ago from Alzheimer's. You loved her and that was enough

Wenner.M
Answered 7 months ago    reply

But she overdosed. and still unsure if it’s an accident or if it was suicide. and I’m so sorry about your mom

donnelly.v
Answered 7 months ago    reply

marlys you couldn’t have prevented this. You’ve got to stop blaming yourself. Putting that guilt on yourself is only going to drag you down and make you feel worse. I’m so sorry love. My heart aches for you.


b_lavelle87
Answered 7 months ago    reply

marlys, sending you so much love and hugs. I know that there is nothing I can say to make it easier on you, but at least know that you have support from so many people to help you get through this. XOXO


optimisticnoodles
Answered 7 months ago    reply

I’m so very sorry.


james.mariette12
Answered 7 months ago    reply

Stay zebrastrong, I am so sorry for your loss. I know it's bittersweet moments for you. With the loss of a loved one, yet celebrate yourself for your accomplishments. Life is life, live it. You are an amazing young woman hugs your way. My condolences.


Cassidy
Answered 7 months ago    reply

It is so hard to lose the people who have known and loved us and were understanding of what we go through, they are the ones who loved us no matter what. And do not dismiss our pain because they have seen what we go through with their own eyes.


Wenner.M
Answered 7 months ago    reply

Thank you everyone. I spent some time with the family today. All of us have that big gaping hole in our hearts where she was. It’s just not the same. We’re all working through it. thank you for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers. I’m so glad I have you guys to be here too especially when the whole family is just hurting and I don’t wanna burden them either.


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